Summers@Home

Enjoying at home.. meeting old friends and relatives.. taking all the parties due.. having home cooked food.. reading novels.. finally watching news.. chatting.. enjoying movies.. and those chocolates at home.. life is fun these days

have to move over for my project at kolkata in 3 days.. 3 days of parties and 3 nights of parties.. yippieee.. fir waha ja ke kolkata and around ke bhi plans banane hain

JEE result day

Today, I recall another stupid and shockingly happy day of my life.. a day I shall never forget! This was the day of result of JEE exam in year 1999. Ya ya I know it's such a beaten theme but it is an important day mann.

I was sitting in IIIT-Allahabad exam on the day and I had no hopes of clearing anything else. In the middle of it, I got so restless that I was willing to leave that exam and go check result of JEE. I remember, one was not permitted to leave exam in middle. I fought with examiner. I fought with Principal.. and who not. Finally, after half an hour of fight, I was let out. I had just my sure chance of getting into something go just to check result of a practically proven failure. This should give you an idea of how mad I was to see the result.

I reached the JEE office straight away. There was this more than 100 ppl crowd totally covering a 5ft by 3 ft board having all the JEE results. I could not cut through this dense crowd. Finally, unwillingly, I handed over my roll number to a tall uncle to check. He replied positive! I got more energy to cross check. I could not cut through. I gave it to another guy. He also replied positive. This time I had to get in. I cut through to get right in the front. Ppl kept abusing me, but it had to be done.

Finally, I did not find my roll number in the clearing list. Those two buggers had checked it wrong. I checked result 5-6 times from different positions. But it was always the same. :-( Negative. I felt defeated and came out accepting it. I was expecting it anyway.

After some half an hour of mourning, I went back to check again. Crowd was a bit thinner now. It was still not there. Then I noticed that a guy I know, who had to clear it at any cost, was also missing. It was so silly. JEE could not fail him. Now I also noticed that roll number indexing had been done row wise not columnwise as I was reading it!

Hell!!!!!!!!!!!

I checked rowwise and I was there..!! At a rank higher than I could imagine myself getting. I literally sat down. This was the first news of my life that had put me under such a shock. I sat there in legs of the crowd for some 10 minutes. I did not have anything left to get up.

People came to console me thinking that I had failed so in shock :p. Then they slowly realised the truth having checked my roll number and gave me hand. I got up with support. They even clapped for me man!!

I had no words. I could not identify a single feeling I had. They were changing so fast.

Then, when I called up home, they already knew! I felt so stupid again to not have cross checked with them before. They would never make mistake in this.
God has these funny ways of making one feel stupid even when at top of the world!!

Khuda meharbaan !!

Today cleared the exam... it was definitely a news :d

To know of what I am talking abt, pls read http://feelthethought.blogspot.com/2006/03/world-class-stupidity.html

I had no hopes of clearing it. And now it is there. Staring me harder in the face than it did before. Sometimes I feel like a stud and sometimes I make mockery of the certification. My friends are doing the both. I guess both are true as well !

either way money and time saved.. bina padhe exam clear.. May this happen to everybody..!!

Friendship redefined

It is so relieving. Like a tension lifted off the head. Things got redefined with the friend. A new equilibrium reached. We just have to acknowledge those black areas of each others' lives that we should not probe into anymore. Things are not as well as before. Not even close. Still, they are stable. What more, this stability is going to stay for pretty long now. I no longer have to worry about sorting things out.

Surprisingly, not reaching the original status doesn't stare me in face. It is acceptable. I had spent a good deal of time and efforts in doing this. This is the best that life could offer me. And I take it.

It brings back the party mood. It brings back a lot of time. It is so satisfying. I can take on the world today.. yippieeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

problems choose the worst time to visit

It is so confusing... this bitterness in my mouth.. I feel it day and night but don't quite know how to get rid of it

Hours are overloaded.. minutes are in question.. definitely a bad time to have conflict.. esp. with good friends.. a bad time to realise that at least one of you have changed so much that probably the whole friendship needs to be redefined.. but this is one mess I have managed myself into.. to make it worse, quickfixing is not an option.

Just hoping that communication remains open and both can manage time and honesty to sort things out.. let's see how it goes